Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Hi all,
It’s been a few days so I thought I would check in. So, it is finally happening. My hair is beginning to fall out. It started yesterday just a little bit but today it has been coming out a lot. I am finding my hair everywhere. It is stuck on my shirt, on the counters, on my pillows, etc. This morning in the shower a clump of hair fell out. Then tonight when I put my purse over my shoulder the strap grabbed my hair (like it sometimes does) only this time I looked down and there was yet another chunk under my purse strap. To me, as part of this process, losing my hair doesn’t make me anonymous anymore. It shows the world what I am going through. It’s taking away a piece of me that was given to me at birth. I never wanted any of this and to take away my hair when I am feeling so much better and energized from the chemo is just another blow to have to deal with. I can’t help but cry over this. I have always said that no matter what I will do whatever I need to do and that attitude has not changed. I am ready for this as much as I ever will be. Right now I pray for the strength on Friday to endure having my head shaved and I pray for the strength of my friends joining me at my appointment. I know in my heart that I will feel a lot better after getting my head shaved and getting my wig. This time beforehand is tough but yet another hurdle that I will get through.

On a bright note I am feeling a lot better and I still have another week before I get chemo round #2. Other than some fatigue I am feeling back to normal. On Monday evening I took the kids to their elementary school playground. The weather was gorgeous that night and it felt great to be alive! Then last night I got to watch Jacob play in his baseball game. Today was a busy day visiting with some family and friends. And tomorrow night I am hoping to go watch a swim meet where I will get to see my Ansley swim in a meet for the first time. This will be her third meet, the first one I am able to attend. Please no hugs if you see me as I am doing my best to stay clear of germs.

My Mom flew back home to Virginia today for some relaxation and scheduled doctor appointments. She returns Monday and my Dad returns Wednesday just in time for treatment #2 of 6.

Love,
Kim